(If you are scared to see a crow, sorry for picking up its photo at the beginning of the page…!)
Hachi would like to collect what popped up in her mind quickly.
When she remembered a crow, it reminded her of the day when she saw a crow closely.
Then, that reminded her of the eyes of the penguin in the photos below as well.
Difficulty of Finding the Core
Black eyes of a crow or a penguin might be saying to her like this:
“Have courage to speak out your core feelings.
That must be hard, not in the meaning of speaking out, but in the meaning of finding the very core feelings or matters.
However, that is your job.
What else do you want to do or can you do?”
Avoiding Double Standard
Now, for example, Hachi’s core feelings?
It is absolutely hard to find core feelings and try to be authentic.
Those eyes above are saying to her like this:
“Double standard definitely has to be avoided.
Even if it is unconscious, it reflects the part of yourself.
It also can be one of the biggest reasons to lose your trust in reality.
When you feel your double standard in yourself, it might be the moment to take time for plenty of inner work.
That could be a door for a new possibility.”
Kind and Strict Eyes to Hold the Field
Hachi also feels like being Peter (a child) on a bench just for a moment.
A bench, in this context, implies the place for her that people can understand each other from the bottom of the heart.
In the movie of “Finding Neverland”, Peter and James had conflicts, and James and Peter’s grandmother also had conflicts.
However, they all went through their conflicts by experiencing and expressing their emotions fully, which let them understand each other and feel fulfilled.
Meaning of Opening up Sorrow and Pain
….Perhaps, we might need to remember that people who look like “soldiers” on the front line in the pandemic feel loneliness and exhausted.
The role of “soldiers” might exists in all kinds of people in all kinds of fields and industries.
(Thus, Hachi feels that we might need to redefine the meaning of “essential workers” or “essential work”.)
Hachi is not sure yet but, when all kinds of pain or sorrow have been fully expressed, those might make our relationships be reconnected and deepened.
Hopefully, sharing pain and sorrow lifts our relationships up and bring deeply fulfilled moments.
Is that only Hachi who feels like that?